A Publication for people who live life.

     Words for humans. Truths for awareness. Advocacy for connection. 
                                                And validation of the self through radical acceptance.

My name is Kali, named after the Hindu Goddess associated with the destructive force that paves the way for new beginnings. She is a symbol of feminine energy, the creative power of nature, and the dualistic nature of the Universe. She is the embodiment of time, consuming all things.

       Just as she represents transformation and destruction of negative forces,  
      I too believe in embracing change and overcoming obstacles with strength
                                                               and resilience. 
                      My given name harmonizes with my human distinction.

Following getting sober 5 years ago after a springtime of drug use and 20 years of alcohol abuse, my mental health declined, propelling me into a whirlwind of disordered emotions, but I could drown my demons no more. As they rose to the surface, I was diagnosed with Borderline, Avoidant, and Paranoid personality disorders as well as PTSD as a survivor of narcissist abuse. It was also revealed that I have been living with ADHD my entire life, something that genetics would never divulge as an adoptee with no organic roots. With the tragic death of my adoptive mother at age 19 and the loss of my dad a few years ago, I once again became an orphan in adult form.

I stood at the gates of my dying soul and chose to withstand the suffering of healing from it all.

And now, I share my transformative explorations and mindful migration with purpose. I aim to break stigmas, share reconstructive insights, reform perspectives, and change the world one word at a time.

With a subscription to my publication, Courageous Chaos, you will encounter truths and wisdom about addiction & sobriety, emotional abuse, mental health, grief & loss, adoption trauma, and the reawaking of identity from my personal experiences while incorporating life-changing skills to build a life worth living.

As a gracious paid subscriber, you will also receive:

The Soundtrack of My Life - Sharing songs and the stories behind them that moved me through suffering, serendipitous change, and love.

My Flutterwords: A look inside the mind of a Borderline. My raw, unedited thoughts as I navigate the journey to recovery.

Misanthropic views on society are also included for your temperamental pleasure.

Within the chaos is a celebration of strength in defiance of life’s challenges. It’s an homage to the indomitable human spirit that refuses to be broken.

My writing has been showcased by The International Human Rights Art Movement, Come Rise With Me Publications, and The Memoirist Quarterly.

✭・.・✫・。Be Courageous in the Chaos 。・✭・.・✫

If you want a sugar coating over the experience of existence, you are in the wrong place. We have enough phonies in the constraints of societal norms to do that for us already.