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Hold On to The Enchanted Moments

Hold On to The Enchanted Moments

Untamed "Flutterwords" Among the Chaos

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Kali Fox-Jirgl
Feb 04, 2025
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A strange thing happened to me this past weekend. I felt happy.

Not just happy, but content, at ease, fulfilled, and gratified with life.

I was almost joyous.

There was nothing in particular that created this feeling in me, it was just an impression of my true self revealing itself. A reminder of that uncaged person I used to be.

I was so astounded by this feeling that I wasn’t even able to determine what it was. I grew quiet for a couple of hours taking it all in. Being aware of it through every sensation. Looking out the window at the bare trees blowing in the frigid wind while hearing its howl, and appreciating the warmth I had indoors. The scent of my favorite incense burning and swirling about the room. My husband’s striking blue eyes, gazing at me and filling me with love. The clarity of colors and explicitness of sound. The music that played moved me to tears.

I hadn’t felt like this in years. I could hear it, see it, touch it, smell it, and taste it.

And I didn’t want to ever go away.

𓆩ᥫ᭡𓆪 If you would like to follow the chaos through to enlightenment, subscribe below to receive my erratic “flutterwords” and be presented with mindfulness skills and practices to comfort and support you through life’s misfortunes. 𓆩ᥫ᭡𓆪

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